Love - lost and gained

I can honestly say I do not think my emotions have ever been on such a rollercoaster ride in my life. I have been ecstatically happy, and incredibly humbled and sad.
Just last Tuesday my husband and I found out that we were pregnant. FINALLY. We had been trying for 3 years and just recently with the assistance of clomid and ovidrel. We were so so so so happy. We decided that we could not wait the full trimester and told my mom, grandma, his sister, his mom and dad. Then our world came down around us. Sunday I had some cramping and a little spotting but had read that could be relatively normal. Monday was way worse, and I ended up in the ER where they ran tests and told me that everything was fine, but the tests had to be re-run in 48 hours to make sure I was moving in the right direction.
Yesterday was the worst day of my life, when I received the news that we lost the baby. My husband has been amazing, and supportive of how upset I am, and I couldn't go through this without him.
I understand that everything happens for a reason, and that my body did what it needed to do to keep me healthy, but I just can't help but wonder why. I know I will not ever know why, and I know I will get past this and we will continue trying for a healthy baby. It's just hard to take these first few steps.

Christmas Projects

It's been a looong while since I have posted my projects, and I wanted to get everyone caught up! I was uber busy over November and December creating all my gifts for the Durren family Christmas, and dresses for all my neices. Not to mention all the gazillion cute dresses and sleepers and outfits for my new neice Audrey Paige.